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Who Do You Really Love
02:40
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Can you get rid of what’s unnecessary
Can you hold still
Can you hear your own thoughts
You’re not supposed to eat the fairy food
We might have done it anyway
A hundred wasted years ago and so enchanting
Have you been ever really sure of anything
Beliefs when held up to the light are all disintegrating
Is it worth it
Is it worth it
There isn’t very much time
Can you get rid of what’s unnecessary
Can you slow down
Can you leave me alone
I don’t recognize this place anymore
Although I’m pretty sure I never left home
If it was severed at the wrist would you still hold my hand
I got so tired of pretending that I like your band
Is it worth it
Is it worth it
There isn’t very much time
Who do you really love
What do you really want
What do you really think
There isn’t very much time
You’re not supposed to think about it
You’re not supposed to say it
Even if it’s true
I made a list of all the pros and cons
And now I kinda know what’s going on
Who do you really love
What do you really want
What do you really think
There isn’t very much time
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There’s a person whose job is to stop you
There’s a person whose job is to stop you
There’s a person whose job is to stop you
From doing the important work that you were born to do
There’s a person whose job is to stop you
There’s a person whose job is to stop you
There’s a person whose job is to stop you
From crossing everything all out and starting over new
Paint the piece of paper black
Paint the table the paper is on black
And any other objects that rest on the table
The wall, the floor, your shoes, the negative space
If they cut off your hand is it still you
If they cut off your arm is it still you
If they want your whole torso
Your heart and your lungs and whatever else is there
What are you gonna do
If they…
We signed up for dystopia
It was a failure of imagination
We signed up for the Devil in manageable increments
It was the price of freedom
We signed up for dystopia
It was a failure of imagination
Don’t you wish you’d thought of anything better
Don’t you wish you’d thought of anything
If they cut off your nose is it still you
If they cut off your face is it still you
If they want your whole brain, the whole thing
Not just a little part of it what are you gonna do
Paint the piece of paper black
Paint the table the paper is on black
And anything that stands in your way on the table
The chairs, the seizure inducing fluorescent lights
And the person whose job is to stop you
There’s a person whose job is to stop you
There’s a person whose job is to stop you
From chewing a hole in the world and escaping through
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3. |
Devil Wants Blood
02:24
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4. |
The Demon
03:01
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If you could rearrange the letters just a little bit
And make it spell a different word
I know the thing you really said was different from the other thing
That everybody thought they heard
He figured out that some atrocity with no specific law against it wasn’t a crime
It was the technicality that he’d been looking for and now he does it every time
If your boyfriend is a sociopath is it ok
No one will ever talk to you about it until it’s too late
She said, “I think there might be something wrong, I don’t know what to do”
It’s all right, it’s nothing serious, there is something wrong with you too
There is something wrong with you two
They figured out that even if there was a law against it nobody who mattered cared
They figured out that you can run the program more efficiently if everybody’s scared
They went to church
They didn’t know it was a church, they called it by a different name
The thing they worshipped there enjoyed all the adoration lavished on it all the same
You weren’t making any sense
But you meant every indecipherable thing you said
And I don’t know what she was thinking
Is it ok
That can be difficult to determine
You can walk on off over the edge of that cliff
And you can keep on going like that for a long time
But no it’s probably not forever
No I mean no it’s only whatever works
For as long as it works, for as long as it works
For as long as can you really, can you really believe
Your human face was breaking
I could see the demon there behind it
I could see the demon there behind it
I could see the demon there behind it
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5. |
The Plastic Eye
02:37
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One if your eyes is alive
One of your eyes is a lie
It’s not a glass eye
The whole surrounding area is plastic
One of your eyes is alive
It’s desperately jerking around like a fish in the sky
Something’s gone wrong, I’m not from around here
I don’t understand it, I don’t know why
One of your eyes is alive
My entire being’s a lie
Your other eye, it went on vacation
Somewhere better than here, now it’s doing fine
The plastic eye says, I can’t see
I’m working on just being me
At first you don’t succeed
The thing you have to do before that is you have to try
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6. |
It's Not Over
02:54
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It’s not over, it’s just broken
It’s not broken, it just hurts
If you can put something together after ripping it apart
You’ll understand how it works
I heard they picked you up in your wheelchair
And held you up there real high
You might never walk again but for a minute you could fly
Till they let you down
Till they let you down
The show must go on so it’s going
And it’s never not been that way
It’s just not working in a manner that is harder to ignore
Than what seemed functional enough yesterday
And whoever did this to you or if you did it yourself
If you thought you should go to Hell so you went on and went to Hell
Did you like it
Where you happy
Do you miss it there
Could you imagine ever being anywhere else
It’s not over, it’s just broken
Are we evil or just cursed
If you can take it down beyond all resurrection
Well, at least then you’ll understand what it’s worth
I heard they picked you up in your wheelchair
And held you up over their heads
For all those times you felt so lonely and you wished you were dead
But the thing is that you aren’t
No at least not yet
For now you’re gonna have to think of something else to do instead
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7. |
Tultepec
02:16
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It was God
It was a murder
Some kind of horrible mistake
It was too great to be an accident
Alive and concentrating on the fire
And at the center of the miracle was your body burning
It was war
It was barbaric
For entertainment and no reason like all wars
A natural disaster
It was God
It was the mind of God
A giant brain the size of a mountain and the neurons all were firing
Too many, too fast, they couldn’t stop
I was too shocked to do anything but watch
The leaves are the stars and the roots are in Hell
And at the center of the miracle was your body burning
Hey, what do you wanna do today
I don’t know, maybe we could try to do the most evil thing we can think of
I don’t really wanna do that, what if we try to be good
What if we try to do something really uplifting and beautiful
That sounds like a lot of work, and I don’t know how
Well if I don’t wanna do that, and you don’t wanna do that
Maybe we could think of some kind of compromise
And at the center of the miracle was your body burning
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Punch
02:30
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Punch punch punch punch
Punching bag punching bag
Punch punch punch punch
Don’t hit back don’t talk back
Punch punch punch
The sugary red liquid
Punch this dummy thinks it might deserve to live
I got no face to see where you might be coming from
I got no legs without which there is no way to run
I got no place to go, nothing else I would rather do
Than just stay here with you
Or without you it makes no difference
There’s an angel and it’s trying to talk to you
But it’s having trouble with the transformation it’s going through
How to reconfigure this body into a form that a human could recognize
So it slithers like a snake back into an old skin that’s the wrong size
And again the great deceiver asks
Could you make it a little less magnificent
A little less
A little less
I got no idea
And I got no name
As much violence as possible
Conveniently without the pain
Don’t think back
Don’t shrink back
Don’t flinch
Don’t feel
Don’t ask yourself
What would I be doing if this were real
I got no no no no no no no no no
No organs to sustain any actual damage
Thank God
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Heaven
02:02
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Your songs are the saddest songs
So wrong you couldn’t go on
Why’d you have to go and do that
They were already sad enough
Your songs are my favorite songs
I can’t stand to listen very long
And you had to
And you had to
They were already good enough
And now
I’m in Heaven
It’s excruciating
Heaven Heaven Heaven
Dead or dreaming
Lost to legend
Heaven Heaven
It’s excruciating
They were already good enough
They were good enough before and now
Your songs are the saddest songs
That great and terrible beyond
Why’d you have to go and do that
They were already sad enough
Your songs are my favorite songs
I’m not listening anymore
I’m not I’m not
And you had to
And you had to
They were already good enough
And now
I’m in Heaven
It’s excruciating
Heaven Heaven Heaven
Disembodied
Lost to legend
Heaven Heaven
It’s excruciating
They were already good enough
They were good enough before and now
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10. |
Enemies
03:23
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I built this dungeon so we could be punished together forever
I built this dungeon so we could be safe from the light of the sun
I had this habit of absentmindedly laying down all these stones
One on top of the other
I couldn’t tell you why
I hope you like it
I built this dungeon
The things you say
The things you do
The things you don’t
The things you mean to
The things you choose
The things you allow to be chosen for you
The things you give
The things you take
The things you take until the break
The things you give until you break
The things you hold on to
Because you don’t know that it’s ok to let go
I built this dungeon so we could be punished together forever
I preferred the impossible burden to getting things done
I had this habit of not looking up at the world when I’m walking around
I took one step down
And another step down
And another step down
Do you know how to love your enemies
Do you know how to love your friends
If you don’t even know who they are
Do you still have to love them then
Do you know how to hate your enemies
Do you know how to hate your friends
If you don’t know how to tell the difference
Do you still have to love them then
Do you have to
Do you have to
Do you know how much you mean to
Do you have to
Do you have to
What if you don’t have it in you
Do you have to
Do you have to
Do you know how much you mean to
Do you have to
Do you have to
Do you have to
Do you have to
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11. |
The Reality
03:05
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I could not bear the shame of this menial task set before me the rest of my life
So now may I please get dehumanized in some new way that is slightly more dignified
Everyone here does the stupidest things for a living
Suffering for our art
Not just for it’s own sake, not cause somebody asked you to
You chose this for a reason
You chose this
I need you to focus
I need you I need you I need you to
Understand what the stakes are
You already gave up on reality
Don’t give up on the dream
If you try to get out of the woods now
You’ll find that that trail of crumbs is all eaten
It’s a place you can go
It’s a place where you used to go
Somewhere you’ve never been
It’s the place where they asked you to leave
And said next time you come here we’re not gonna let you back in
Now I’m wondering where is the
What was the why did you
Why did you stop what you do
I believed in you
I woke up
I’d been somewhere else
I tried to make sense of my present surroundings
For some reason this time it’s harder than usual
To forget what I’ve seen
There’s a voice that don’t know what it’s doing
And it’s been saying some difficult things
I’d been talking to myself this whole time
The trouble is that I had also been listening
We’re all encouraged not to
We’re told, walk away from that beautiful, dangerous
Dangerous dangerous beautiful dangerous freedom
Spoke to me and it told me things
It said
You already gave up on reality
Don’t give up on the dream
If you try to get back into civilization
You’ll find out there’s no such thing
You already gave up on reality
The thing is
So did everyone else
Where is the world
What was the world
What was it like there and why did we squander it
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12. |
Decadence and Decline
02:19
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Your mind is mine all mine
I have known you inside out for a long time
Your mind is mine all mine
I have known you inside out for a long time
They can make it how you want it
They can make it exactly right
The first attempt wasn’t perfect
The 20th was
Even if it was missing something
Even if it was, even if it was missing something
Even if it was, I can’t get mad at you
Whatever it was I can’t imagine
I could never really
Your mind is mine all mine
I have known you inside out for a long time
Your mind is mine all mine
When the boundaries are weak and ill defined
They can make it how you want it
They know you better than you know yourself
Does it feel good to be understood that well
To be understood that well
I can make it how you want it
And I’ve been listening to all your prayers
I know they weren’t meant for me but guess what
I can hear you, I exist, and I care
Your mind is mine all mine
I have known you inside out for a long time
Your mind is mine all mine
It’s to bring them all and in the darkness bind
They can make it how you want it
They can make it how you want it but will they
Let’s eat candy for dinner again every day
They can make it
And they can take it away
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